tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44209546589917886652024-03-08T06:29:00.701-08:00Sarah vs. RealitySarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-57324495533588618972012-06-27T11:57:00.002-07:002012-06-27T11:59:16.346-07:00<div style="color: black;">
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<span style="background-color: white; color: blue;">sl</span>, can you please<b> STOP</b> confusing me??<br />
i <b>really</b> like you.<br />
i might even <b><span style="color: red;">love</span></b> you.<br />
but i can never admit it.<br />
because i can never read you.<br />
sometimes i feel that you almost admit it.<b> <u> </u></b><br />
<b><u>almost able to tell me the truth. tell me how you feel…about me.</u></b><br />
but you never do. you never answer my unasked question.<br />
do you know?<i> do you know that i like you? </i><br />
<i> </i>do you know that i want to know if you like me?<br />
i think i <b><span style="color: red;">love</span></b> you.<br />
so tell me. tell me if you love me or not.<br />
because <i><b>even if your answer is no, </b></i><br />
<i><b>it’s better than just playing around with both my head, and my heart.</b></i></div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-59818241255217676292012-04-21T08:05:00.003-07:002012-04-21T08:16:05.063-07:0021st April 2012I'm so sad...<div>My dad asked me a question just now...</div><div>He said "Are you really interested in this course or not?"</div><div>And although I mumbled a weak yes...I'm having my doubts...</div><div><br /></div><div>I am so not part of this family...</div><div>I really don't belong with them in any way...</div><div>I'm not smart like jie jie and papa, or witty like jie jie and mummy.</div><div>Why does she have to be so perfect...??</div><div>Always doing everything perfectly.</div><div>Sure they complain about her temper, but they're never disappointed with her.</div><div>I always make them disappointed. </div><div>I know that they would probably be happier if there was never a Sarah Ng.</div><div><br /></div><div>It's not just that...</div><div>Whenever we have our Sunday family lunch, I never feel like I'm actually part of it.</div><div>They would laugh and talk, and I would just sit there awkwardly.</div><div>And it's not like they never try to include me,</div><div>I just never have anything to contribute.</div><div><br /></div><div>A couple of posts earlier I mentioned that I hate my family...</div><div>I don't...I hate being me in this family.</div><div>I hate everything about me.</div><div>I hate how I can never do things right,</div><div>I hate how I always mess SOMETHING up,</div><div>I hate how I just never really fit in, </div><div>And most of all, I hate how no matter how hard I try it never works.</div><div>So now I give up, and just lock myself up in my room...</div><div>Oh how attractive...no?</div><div><br /></div><div>-stress typing, it's my thing-</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-33959928892489498102012-01-19T06:54:00.000-08:002012-01-19T07:17:38.964-08:002012it's 2012...wow time sure does fly...<div>is it normal that i feel a little bit sad?</div><div>i really miss highschool...</div><div>i miss how everything was so easy...</div><div>and how everyone was so simple...</div><div><br /></div><div>it's been over a year since highschool,</div><div>and i still don't know how to not try so hard...</div><div>feel so pathetic, sooooo unlike life in SBS.</div><div><br /></div><div>i miss how in highschool, it's easy to tell who's a hypocrite and who's real.</div><div>but now, everything is just so messed up...</div><div>i can feel myself turning into a horrible human being.</div><div>i know when i'm acting like an ass,</div><div>and i know when i'm being a hypocrite...</div><div>and the worst part is...i'm good at it.</div><div>it scares me. i'm scared that one day i'll turn into something i hate.</div><div>and somehow...it feels like that day is near...</div><div><br /></div><div>but i know one thing that hasn't changed,</div><div>and God, i hope it never will.</div><div>smiles still are, and hopefully will always be,</div><div>my special way of getting to know someone...=)<br /><br /></div><div>i miss everyone, i miss everything,</div><div>and i sure wish i never have to let go...</div><div>but i guess i should just face it...<br />i'm getting older, everything is changing,</div><div>and the only thing that will never change are the memories.<br /><span jsid="text" class="commentBody">♥</span></div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-25079626882558233172011-09-25T05:24:00.000-07:002011-09-25T05:33:24.358-07:003.25That's my CGPA for my 1st Sem.<br />My family isn't exactly happy about it though...<div>Apparently according to them, I SHOULD have done better.</div><div>I have to be like my perfect sister, get perfect results, do everything perfectly.</div><div>I hate my family.</div><div>I don't belong in this family.</div><div>I hate that when they look at me...</div><div>I don't look like family.</div><div><br /></div><div>I cried for the first time in a very long time...</div><div>And I'm crying again.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thank God no one reads my blog.</div><div><br /></div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-308767420244717742011-09-02T09:45:00.000-07:002011-09-02T10:02:50.908-07:002/11/2011Just got back from a mamak session with Jian and Jo...=D<div>It was really fun!</div><div>I drove all the way to bukit jalil!! 1st time on highway!! =D </div><div>they said i was a horrible driver tho...>.<</div><div>So when we reached Bukit Jalil Jian took over the wheels and drove to Al-Barkath.</div><div>Met with Joyenn's friend and his friends...</div><div>then shisha-ed a bit....Jian paid...hehe ;)</div><div>yum cha, chatted, camwhored...xD, then baliked...=/</div><div>Jian drove back...dropped Jo home 1st then he drove to my house...=D</div><div>he met my babiesss and then he left....=D ahh fun fun....I wanna drive agaaaiiiinn!!!</div><div>Gotta practice!!! =D</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-35706408935931783962011-06-19T02:28:00.000-07:002011-09-01T10:25:11.812-07:0019/06/11<div style="text-align: center;">1st things 1st.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's Papa's Bday today!!!!!! OMG!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">He's 59 already!! =)</div><div style="text-align: center;">I really love my Dad...he's awesome!</div><div style="text-align: center;">and it's also Mistah Charles Tan's Bday...=)</div><div style="text-align: center;">Love that guy! =D</div><div style="text-align: center;">Also it's father's day so we went for lunch which was sooooo funny!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">But uh...Lets not get into that...lazy syot...xD</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then we came home and cut Papa's Ice-Cream Cake which was like YUM! XD</div><div style="text-align: center;">Jie bought Papa a new phone...still simple basic but can take pictures and has colour...lol</div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Anywayssss</div><div style="text-align: center;">College started like 2 weeks ago.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's actually been really fun.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I'm already swamped with assignments...=/</div><div style="text-align: center;">Which I only JUST finished! pheww...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I really miss my highschool friends. =(</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've made loads of new friends in college tho...</div><div style="text-align: center;">They're great...with an exception of William...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I made up my mind to be pissed at him yday...</div><div style="text-align: center;">but kan...I'm not really good at that...=/</div><div style="text-align: center;">I reeeeeaaaaaally wanna be pissed coz he lied and uh badly at that...</div><div style="text-align: center;">but today I just talked to him...like biasa nii...==</div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">I honestly need a life now tho...</div><div style="text-align: center;">All the friends that I used to go out with, </div><div style="text-align: center;">now they're all...well we don't really hang out anymore =(</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm still not that close with my college friends so we don't hang out...</div><div style="text-align: center;">not to mention the fact that they all live in PJ and I live in KL =(</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel so lonely...like I got no friends...=(</div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Kay...I'm gonna wallow in self pity now...Laters!!</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-57499086251643450112011-04-26T07:38:00.000-07:002011-09-01T10:25:38.334-07:00in my head "blaberdiblaberdiblarrrrrrr"<div style="text-align: center;">i'm so confused!!...</div><div style="text-align: center;">in my head is a jumble of thoughts...</div><div style="text-align: center;">i honestly feel like i should just whack my head so hard it'll knock out all the confusion...</div><div style="text-align: center;">i miss you and you and you!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">i want him and him and him!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">thts bad and bad and bad.</div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">i think i'm sad.</div><div style="text-align: center;">but idk.</div><div style="text-align: center;">i think i'm happy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">but idk.</div><div style="text-align: center;">how is a girl supposed to feel in a situation like this??</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-27058271190274230752011-03-26T07:36:00.000-07:002011-03-29T06:58:56.128-07:00SBS Jogathon & Hari Keusahawaantoday went back to sbs for the jogathon and stuff thingy...<div>it was kinda like a festival...quite fun...in d beginning...</div><div><br /></div><div>the day started like.........................</div><div>okay laa....got there found cin...talk talk...walk walk...</div><div>went to d SBS got talent thingy...</div><div>alot of them sucked...== seriously...</div><div><br /></div><div>den me n cin walked around summore...</div><div>n i decided to buy tickets for d haunted hse...</div><div>after buying d tickets...i saw d line...</div><div>the OH MAI GAWD soooooo effin LOOOOOONG line!!!</div><div>so i decided to wait ltr only masuk...</div><div><br /></div><div>den we walked n walked...</div><div>then it got boring dii...</div><div>saw a couple of our seniors there...</div><div>Chi Wei Xue Feng Nicholas Noel Lester...a buncha others...=/</div><div>Chi Wei Got kinda cute...=/ lol...</div><div>but rambut masih sama je...xD</div><div><br /></div><div>after tht cin's parents came n she had to leave...=(</div><div>so yeah i walked around alone...</div><div>n decided to go into d school area to look around...for fun...</div><div>u know i ike my alone time...=)</div><div>but i saw joshua and so i decided to talk to him instead...</div><div>We chatted until he had to leave...den i left to....</div><div>walk walk lagi n decided to check on d haunted hse...=D</div><div>but no luck...</div><div>d line still shoooooooo long!!!!</div><div>so i stood on d bleachers n waved to akii....</div><div>lucky lucky...</div><div>the group going in next tak cukup org...</div><div>so she ask me to join them...</div><div>idk but i think d ghost purposely din scare me...==</div><div>i mean Benjamin even went "Hi Sarah" inside...==</div><div>and he gave me directions...</div><div>it was freaky dark tho...</div><div>pitch black weih...</div><div><br /></div><div>um den after tht i helped akii out abit...</div><div>when dey closed n were cleaning up i decided to sit on d bleachers n text n call n annoy d shit outta ppl...lol</div><div>after tht...i annoyed d shit out of qin ern (i think) when i asked him if i could follow his moms car home...><</div><div>he said okay but his mom is kinda scary so i think i annoyed him summore...</div><div>tried paintball after tht...it was kinda fun...</div><div>d guy said imma natural sharp shooter!! HAH!! becareful bastards tht piss me off!! u'll never know when a bullet from me is flying towards ur brain!!!</div><div>um den i balik with qin ern...</div><div>it was a fine day i guess...</div><div><br /></div><div>oh ya!!</div><div>when i got home n changed clothes...</div><div>i noticed...mmy chest has this V shaped patch of red...</div><div>i think i got sun burned at tht spot only lolsss...xD</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-64984084177295059852011-03-07T22:44:00.000-08:002011-03-07T23:07:56.228-08:008/03/2011I'm so sad!!<br />My mommy sayd I cnt go to college until july!! ='(<br />she said takde wang!!...<br />i cnt believe it...i'm so sad!! =(<br />I don't have much stories to tell now tho...=S<br />I'm preeety lifeless considering i haven't been doing anything...<br /><br />On another note...<br />I've been learning how to drive...<br />and well my exam is on the 10th...><<br />I'm so nervous! wish me luck?? =)<br /><br />Then on the 11th we're going out!! =D<br />and by we I mean Cin Emi Yinru ML Reena and me!...=D<br />I cnt wait...Cin is also introducing us to someone...um...new that entered her life =)<br /><br />*dear blog, i'm sorry i haven't prettied you up...=( i promise to start as soon as i get my own lappy!!*Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-50820207963427351282011-01-20T22:24:00.000-08:002011-01-20T22:42:13.166-08:0021/1/2011okay...<br />here's the deal...<br />I'm supposed to start a new blog this year...<br />and this was supposed to be it...<br />but obviously...knowing me... I didn't have the time...=(<br />well...I'll start soon...<br />probably blog more when college starts n i have stuff to blog abt...=D<br />okay...sooo...latersssssssSarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4420954658991788665.post-50826080241733481882011-01-01T08:12:00.000-08:002011-01-02T01:48:48.342-08:002011<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >in just a blink of an eye </span><span class="Apple-style-span" >2010</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" >has passed us...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >2010</span><span class="Apple-style-span" > was quite the year...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >facing many obstacles and solving problems together...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >i'll definitely miss it...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >but i'm looking forward to </span><span class="Apple-style-span" >2011</span><span class="Apple-style-span" >...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >i'm looking forward to getting to know life...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >getting to know reality...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >and making my mark in the world...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >here's me...taking a deep breath...and my first step into the world.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >-sarah-</span></div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12571255097488960176noreply@blogger.com0